The wheels keep on turning, the motor is still running, i am constantly driving but its as if i feel like the road directly in front of me is the only thing i can see, like i’m driving at night, but my high beams aren’t working, so i can’t make out the surroundings, just the small space in front of me. I don’t know whats going to come out in front of me. I drive in faith that i am going to get somewhere i want to go because i have no other option.
Planning my trip is a lot to ask myself, as i don’t know what i really want, only the idea of what i want. Only when opportunity comes about in such a way that i couldn’t of prepared it myself, does it feel like i can make a choice. I don’t often get in a position to make a choice, alot depends on factors of where i am both physically and mentally, plus what ideas are driving my mind/heart at that time.