a lonely explanation..

Loneliness is a possessive emotion, it thrives in the absence of felt love, even if that lonely person is surrounded by people that love them, if that love is never strategically expressed, meaningfully & on purpose in every day life, that love may never truly be felt, it may not be seen as a reality to that lonely person, because if that love is only expressed in times of distresses they likely will not believe it, in other words that love you think you have for them may fall on deaf ears, in the time of their need. Then you’ll regret it. So express love at any & everytime. Don’t wait until they’re broken until you express it.

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Connecting

People connect with one another, it is how we are meant to live. Connecting means engaging people in conversation, accepting people’s company, listening to their thoughts and speaking your own.

Throughout my past, I’ve always isolated myself by default, i guess it’s due to a childhood of criticism and the lack of open communication, it left me unable to be vulnerable to share my thoughts and life with another in a sincere way, i still struggle with this, but I have so much to gain by connecting with people, I’ve got to lose my inhibitions which confine my connections. People connecting with each other is a special thing. Especially strangers. Of everyone, those few whom you connect with & engage in conversation with are special. What draws us together?

You and I should stop resisting each other’s company out of fear or an exaggerated sense of personal insecurity, if you are doing that. In saying that you should excercise caution with the people whom you connect with. People who want to isolate you and keep you to themselves are not trustworthy and do not love you, well not love you with a love that wants the best for you, they tend to love you to control you. I hope you can discern the difference in your relationships. If not you’re setting yourself up for a world of hurt.

 

What are you thinking?

While thinking to yourself; you may hear what you always hear, you may say what you always say, but if you struggle to hear and say something good to yourself, then i say the brave challenge their own ideas when they feel unworthy and the wise discredit criticism by living without shame.

Our emotions are like rain drops, they come for a day or a season, but then dissipate, eventually changing to a sunny warmth, and like the weather, our emotions are meant to change. its called life. So before you get so old you can barely walk and speak, ask yourself if you need to change what you’re thinking and feeling. Don’t hold onto one feeling so much that it consumes you, rather make sure you take time out to re-evaluate what is really important to you, then take hold of that. As you maybe wasting time if you don’t.

Rant

The wheels keep on turning, the motor is still running, i am constantly driving but its as if i feel like the road directly in front of me is the only thing i can see, like i’m driving at night, but my high beams aren’t working, so i can’t make out the surroundings, just the small space in front of me. I don’t know whats going to come out in front of me. I drive in faith that i am going to get somewhere i want to go because i have no other option.

Planning my trip is a lot to ask myself, as i don’t know what i really want, only the idea of what i want. Only when opportunity comes about in such a way that i couldn’t of prepared it myself, does it feel like i can make a choice. I don’t often get in a position to make a choice, alot depends on factors of where i am both physically and mentally, plus what ideas are driving my mind/heart at that time.