care

What are you thinking?

While thinking to yourself; you may hear what you always hear, you may say what you always say, but if you struggle to hear and say something good to yourself, then i say the brave challenge their own ideas when they feel unworthy and the wise discredit criticism by living without shame.

Our emotions are like rain drops, they come for a day or a season, but then dissipate, eventually changing to a sunny warmth, and like the weather, our emotions are meant to change. its called life. So before you get so old you can barely walk and speak, ask yourself if you need to change what you’re thinking and feeling. Don’t hold onto one feeling so much that it consumes you, rather make sure you take time out to re-evaluate what is really important to you, then take hold of that. As you maybe wasting time if you don’t.

Rant

The wheels keep on turning, the motor is still running, i am constantly driving but its as if i feel like the road directly in front of me is the only thing i can see, like i’m driving at night, but my high beams aren’t working, so i can’t make out the surroundings, just the small space in front of me. I don’t know whats going to come out in front of me. I drive in faith that i am going to get somewhere i want to go because i have no other option.

Planning my trip is a lot to ask myself, as i don’t know what i really want, only the idea of what i want. Only when opportunity comes about in such a way that i couldn’t of prepared it myself, does it feel like i can make a choice. I don’t often get in a position to make a choice, alot depends on factors of where i am both physically and mentally, plus what ideas are driving my mind/heart at that time.

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Have you ever had a time in your life where you’ve said to yourself releivingly, ‘i’ve found myself’?

Most people care about who they are and what they are going to become, yet some people have trouble comprehending why they should ask themselves such deep questions. We are all different but we have a common desire, that is to feel important or valued by someone or something. The mere fact of how we reproduce, seems to show us, that we Humans, were designed to share life together, yet it doesn’t feel like it sometimes.

Our personal values and beliefs shape our point of view, whether we are fully aware of our actual inner beliefs is another question. I’ve noticed the more we think we beleive in something, the more we change our appearance to suit that belief, its like we masqurade with that belief in our public lives, but our hearts are often governed by deeper beliefs that have subtley formed in us as we grew and experienced different feelings. We tend to base a belief on a specific experience, yet at the same time deny it, as we don’t realize why it affected us and changed us, it just did.

If you look at your own history and say you have no regrets, you are either special or are especially self-decieved. I guess that is determined by the degree of openness you have in your relationships, the less our friends know about us, the more regrets we will be suseptible to. Let me warn you not to throw your pearls to the swine(in regards to sharing your personal thoughts to another), its simply letting the people who are willing to care for you, to do so.

Body + Mind + Heart

Do our bodies act independantly of our minds and emotions in our heart?

if you feel sad, does your body feel good?

I’m questioning how much influence our mind and emotions has on our body. If our mind percieves something a certain way it can possibly bring about a symptom in the body.

What if we are holding on to a secret, a traumatic experience, a denial of truth in our hearts for so long it starts developing a sickness in the body that stems from that place of darkness you have kept this ‘Held’ thing in. It’s possible with a bit of light exposure to that dark place it could begin a healing process for the body, the mind & the heart.

What does light do to things in the darkness? it shows you whats really there and gives you a place to begin, if you’re desiring change. Its not easy and it takes courage. Yet Light brings hope, even painful hope is better then denying and hiding your brokeness yet still being in pain, the latter steals more then you think it can, it steals your life.