When you can’t see beyond your circumstance you are easily disheartened. Our view of life and our choices are surprisingly short-sighted. From the things we buy to the people we like, it is only really that thought in the present time that determines how you act or react to a situation. The past shapes your view of life but feelings run your daily choices, that is if you are aware of what your feelings are. It’s amazing how our minds can deceive us into thinking a goal we create for our life is the main thing that matters. for example a professional sportsmen can train so hard and focus so intently on being his best that he neglects to recognize other important needs in his own heart. When we focus on achieving something in a blindly focused way, it can easily distract us from viewing our own hearts. We all have deep desires within our hearts, but some are so deep they are covered by layers of personal paraphernalia, it order to find our deep desires we need to ask ourselves tough questions and be willing to deal with topics such as shame, envy, bitterness, unforgiveness, anger just to name a few. If we don’t ever question ourselves then we fail to see our true potential, if we blindly follow our daily pursuits to obtain more in order to feel successful in life, then we miss out on a lot of feelings, emotions and peace in our hearts. I have observed that our true potential is discovered not in the attainment of a better career or things, but in knowing your heart so well, you realise that your needs aren’t so complicated after all, because honest observation of self is like a fire burning within you, you can either view the flame with fear and use it as an excuse to keep hiding the deep things of your heart in their isolated state, allowing them to have no meaning to you or can view the flame as a personal refining fire that it is only their to burn away the crap laying all around you that you laid there, it gives you a place to burn your junk and help you discover the true desires you may have been neglecting.
People connect with one another, it is how we are meant to live. Connecting means engaging people in conversation, accepting people’s company, listening to their thoughts and speaking your own.
Throughout my past, I’ve always isolated myself by default, i guess it’s due to a childhood of criticism and the lack of open communication, it left me unable to be vulnerable to share my thoughts and life with another in a sincere way, i still struggle with this, but I have so much to gain by connecting with people, I’ve got to lose my inhibitions which confine my connections. People connecting with each other is a special thing. Especially strangers. Of everyone, those few whom you connect with & engage in conversation with are special. What draws us together?
You and I should stop resisting each other’s company out of fear or an exaggerated sense of personal insecurity, if you are doing that. In saying that you should excercise caution with the people whom you connect with. People who want to isolate you and keep you to themselves are not trustworthy and do not love you, well not love you with a love that wants the best for you, they tend to love you to control you. I hope you can discern the difference in your relationships. If not you’re setting yourself up for a world of hurt.
While thinking to yourself; you may hear what you always hear, you may say what you always say, but if you struggle to hear and say something good to yourself, then i say the brave challenge their own ideas when they feel unworthy and the wise discredit criticism by living without shame.
Our emotions are like rain drops, they come for a day or a season, but then dissipate, eventually changing to a sunny warmth, and like the weather, our emotions are meant to change. its called life. So before you get so old you can barely walk and speak, ask yourself if you need to change what you’re thinking and feeling. Don’t hold onto one feeling so much that it consumes you, rather make sure you take time out to re-evaluate what is really important to you, then take hold of that. As you maybe wasting time if you don’t.
The wheels keep on turning, the motor is still running, i am constantly driving but its as if i feel like the road directly in front of me is the only thing i can see, like i’m driving at night, but my high beams aren’t working, so i can’t make out the surroundings, just the small space in front of me. I don’t know whats going to come out in front of me. I drive in faith that i am going to get somewhere i want to go because i have no other option.
Planning my trip is a lot to ask myself, as i don’t know what i really want, only the idea of what i want. Only when opportunity comes about in such a way that i couldn’t of prepared it myself, does it feel like i can make a choice. I don’t often get in a position to make a choice, alot depends on factors of where i am both physically and mentally, plus what ideas are driving my mind/heart at that time.