emotions amidst childhood

When a kid grows up with out much direction, coupled with a numb heart of unexplored desires, they really can end up as an adult with no vision for the future. They are used to living day by day and reacting to situations, as the idea of preparing for something that may or may not happen seems tiring, if that thought does ever come into their head.

This is a result of being driven mainly by emotions with no real sense of logic or reason. To add to this dilemma, the emotions which are driving the kid tend to be misguided and misused.  This tends to be the case more with kids who have an unstable family life, where they may experience verbal and emotional abuse aswell as physical, or simple neglect. Yet can also be the case in an apparent normal home, no family is perfect after all.
Another aspect to this is that logic and reason are foreign to these kids as they’ve grown up with illogical behaviour from those close with them. The world is full of these types of kids. I’m one of them.

Illogical behaviour is simply acting flippantly on emotions and making rash decisions without concern for others, whether intended or not, it doesn’t matter. When parents do this around their kids without any explanation or gentle reasoning, it gets messy. The kids will try to find an escape and shut them selves off from the family and probably start viewing porn to get a sense of relief. Thus increasing the sense of emotional numbness in the family home.

Human emotion can become a wild beast if left unattended and like most wild things, it will either run away or charge toward anything that approaches it. We need to learn of ourselves and pursue self-control, not so that we are easy to be controlled by others, but so we can stop ourselves from hurting others and help us identify if we are causing the hurt. This requires each person looks into their own hearts at times and question their motives and their point of view, or to put it another way; being selfish is not our right, it’s just one of our choices, if we could recognize that it would be significant for all those around us.

World Issues

I have seen poverty in africa, and wealth in australia and america. I have seen a poor man beg on the streets. I have been approached by a woman on the streets of India who asked me for money and i could see she was ashamed to ask, i could feel that she wasn’t a seasoned begger. She once had, now she didn’t and was in need. She was in her early 20′s or so, beautiful. I knocked her back for no reason much besides lack of compassion. But that one moment did play on my conscience. An incling to show concern and act on it could have saved her from going to the next level and likely end up in a brothel or abused by the thugs on streets, at least for a while, who knows.


The things we see and do are indeed many in our life time. The things we do out of good conscience are only simple if we are on the outside looking in, in other words, have no personal connection to those caught in the issue.

A person who can act out of good conscience and stay committed to that ideal, without compromise, would be someone to truly admire. Surely most of our heroes are men and women who have fought for the right of a culture or people that they were a part of and so passionate about, that it lead them to do acts that few were willing or capable to make. Only those with radical desires or passion have the power to make changes.
The problem with the society today, is that it’s so open, so international and so complicated, our passion for justice fits into generic worldwide categories that seem to big to counter for a typical person, for example, human trafficking, child abuse, terrorists, domestic violence etc, it crosses borders and countries, so we make groups and organisations to counter it, which require money to run and salaries of employees to maintain just a small area of injustice. We need to be able to fuel justice without money, it’s got to come from each individual community, it would stem from strong-willed people standing up for weak and vulnerable, to share what they have so the poor don’t get lead to acts of crime.

Humanity has missed something. We are trying to maintain order and fairness in a world where selfishness and greed drive most acts of injustice. We live in a society where legally a person cannot be judged as guilty until they have been caught in the act by an authoritative power. The authoritative power needs to come from within the community, from those that can see it happening behind closed doors everyday.

Another problem with humanity is that once someone has power over people and resource, they are susceptible to bribes, double standards and greed. No-one is righteous. We only have a chance if those in power are surrounded by those who are strong enough and willing to fight for all types of people, to influence the decision maker to make better decisions for the communities he can affect

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